It’s that time of the month again, well it’s that pre-part. That week before my period after I’ve finished ovulating where PMS starts to rear it’s head. My breasts get tender, I experience mild and random cramping, fatigue, and am more cranky and depressed than usual. I also tend to sleep for more than 12 hours, even taking naps after a 12 hour sleep. Exercise makes me extremely tired, and I can not bare hunger pangs so I am grubbing all day. I also can’t do any work for some reason, the idea of any sort labor makes me want to go back to sleep.
Women are conditioned to abhor our menstrual cycles. Pharmaceutical companies, doctors, and Planned Parenthood are constantly pushing dangerous hormonal birth control on us to modify and destroy the natural cycles of or bodies. Stoping ovulation so we are infertile, and don’t have periods, or don’t have them for months. I always thought this was insane. My experience with hormonal birth control was never positive, in fact I’ve only been on birth control for a few days because I couldn’t take the crankiness and cramps it gave me! It has also triggered the worst eczema break outs ( which weren’t listed as a side effect) I’ve ever experienced in my entire life. As soon as I went off the pills, my skin cleared up, my mood became better, and my period regulated so I could start tracking my cycle.
I’m lucky, unlike many women, to have only suffered through artificial pills for a very very brief couple days, compared to many women I know who take them for years. The dangers of artificial birth control are apparent for many of my friends who have terrible acne breakouts. I always asked, why take them when you are sacrificing so much of your humanity? You’re destroying your body so you can be accessible for male fuckery all the time, and so you won’t have a menstrual cycle?
There are natural ways to avoid getting pregnant from PIV, that actually aren’t misogynistic, but the most disturbing part of this is women taking these pills because of the hatred of their menstrual cycles. The patriarchy has conditioned us to fear and be disgusted by our biology. The menstrual cycle is supposed to be a shaming experience, because it has been universalized that is the root of why women are apparently inferior to men and cannot make intelligent decisions.They laugh at us in pop culture, and say the cure is to become dependent on male-dominated pharmaceutical companies who wish to profit off of the subjugation of our bodies. Artificial birth control is male biological warfare against females.
The myths about the horridness of the menstrual cycle are actually very painful for females. It teaches us to despise our bodies, All that jeering and mournful talk about “that time of the month” as if it is too heretical to have a proper name, by our health teachers. The comments of male and females in class being disgusted. My body is not Lord Voldemort! It deeply pains me when I hear my female friends talking about how they hate their periods, and are humiliated by them. I am someone who appreciates the menstrual cycle, and detests everything that gets in the way of it’s happening.I’ve come to learn that there is nothing wrong or unnatural about the female menstrual cycle at all! In fact it is something that should be celebrated. Nature moves in cycles. Women have cycles. Our cycles are proof of our interconnectedness and allegiance to something greater than industrial civilization. Industrial civilization has tried hard to break this connection, because it hates the natural and it hates women. The patriarchy’s purpose from the very beginning was to remove women from nature, and make women the controlled slaves of men. By us hating our menstrual cycles and taking birth control we are supporting this agenda and causing more suffering for ourselves.
Men have always tried to modify the menstrual cycle so women can work all the time. From tampons, to pads, we’ve always been told to never truly allow ourselves to give into our natural process and see it as an obstacle which should be adjusted for our labour. This is insane. Women should be able to give into laziness, to give in to rest, and isolation when they are on their periods. Women aren’t slaves but human beings with needs and preferences, not just constant free laborers for the servitude of corporations, government bureaus, men, and the nuclear family.
As contrary to popular opinion, their is nothing wrong with pre-menstrual syndrome, and it does not mean you are incoherent and crazy. It does not make women crazy and overemotional either, which is a highly misogynistic lie. Scientists try to label this part of our cycle as a “syndrome”, as a medical disorder needing treatment and management.They call it the curse. Prescribing us pills to numb us away from what our bodies are trying to communicate to us. In my experience I have been through serious mental breakdowns and become most emotionally aware during pre-menstrual syndrome. I don’t think these breakdowns were due to me being insane, but they were reactions towards years of oppression I have faced on this earth, and the repression of these emotions.Feelings and thoughts that I had been taught to ignore everyday.Modern day industrial controlled psychiatry would just like to call it crazy. During my pre-menstrual phase my internal being intensifies.
Doctors have still not found a legit reasoning as to why PMS occurs.We women deep down inside know that it is none other than a gift. Women are given the gift of increased sensitivity towards male bullshit. We are able to recognize the oppression in our lives, and see the connections. We are able to react to things that are wrong, and see the reality before us. Pre-menstrual syndrome is an evolutionary advantage we have over male comprehension of the world. When PMS-ing I notice that my feelings on my appearance and interactions with males disappears. I am in no care to conform to their feminine of ideas of being polite and kind. Fuck that.
I write this after sleeping for 12 hours but still ready to take take a nap. This morning I recognized how selfish and abusive my father is towards my mother. All month I was unable to spot this tyranny but now it is revealing itself to me again because of my increased senses. I’m thankful of my pre-menstrual period.
Since there is no real scientific reasoning as to why the pre-menstrual phase occurs, it should be obvious that women should not leave it to scientists to define their worth. I choose to listen to my body when it comes to my cycle. By doing this I know that I am trying to create an example in which women are not hateful of their bodies, and are in fact in tune with them. Where women are living a fuller connection to the world around them, and have remodeled society so that it is dominated by female ways of living and relating. It is through our menstrual cycles that I believe women can become reacquainted with these ancient female ways of relating and being.